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Posted May 22, 2012 at 9:56pm

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Don't wna end up like this please.

Me: Idk if you're awake no a not. But, I'm gna say it anw. Idk if you've noticed. But we've drifted apart. And there's one thing human beings do that we don't. Talking. You've been busy lately and I know that. Thus I didn't speak a word about how I felt. I'm gna let you know this. Recently I've been tweetings stuffs that get teh ppl who really love and care about me worried. They worry that I'll be letting go of all of this. WHy? Cause they actually know my story. The reason why I've been hanging on though you piss me off so many times and maing me feel so unsure. And why am i telling you this now? it because its the new term agn. And you'll be busier thn ever. And if there ain't time for us, we'll continue to drift apart like that. Recently, I've been asking myself if its truly worth it to continue hanging on. Right now, I still don't have the answer. And there are thoughts about letting go. So yeah. Thats it. And I want to here your thought. I don't want you to go "ok........." (Ps, I've awake cuz I've been thinking agn)
D: Ok lar. Really sorry. Coz just now I was talking to my father about my damn future. I know we drifted apart also. I realised it, cuz I'm human lol. I'll talk.
Me: Yes we should talk.
D: Haha ok lar. I tell you one fucking good news you keep it to yourself k.
Me: what.
D: ENRICO IS COMING BACK:)
Me: Wow. Ok. Thats good.
D: Wlao sorry lar. You so sian.
Me: Its 1053 and my mind just ran racing like every night and thn you suddenly come with the news that enrico coming back. Abit no link uh.
D: Sorry lar can. My fault for not talking ok.
Me: Fine ok. Thn now what?
D: I'm not giving up. What about you
Me: I'm not. But we can't go on like that either. Mistakes like this ain't made the first time.
D: Alrights. Den what you gonna do? Im talking
Me: You're texting. Talking is using your mouth. What can i do?
D: You can choose to give up.
Me: Give up? Is that what you want me to do?
D: Obviously not. But what the hell you want me to do sia.
Me: I want you to make time.
D: Ok, I will. Or at least try my best. Gonna sleep. Nights. Ly.

Posted April 29, 2012 at 10:03pm | 1 note

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Tears always seem to flow down when I get home. Its as if this is the only place safe enough to let go of my feelings and everything. The first day passed, I cried in the morning, in the night and in between lessons. Today, I cried at UCC and when I came home. Salty tears seems to be so familiar now. I’m so afraid that we won’t end up together again. Was taking the train just now, this time there was no one to come up to me and ask me “hey are you ok?” Cause this time, its got to do with you. How is it that we’re able to have so many memories making one another happy and end up this way. You told me it was possible that you could care for me so much but yet not love me. Do you know how much that hurts? It hurts more than if you were to just let go of me completely, then I won’t have hope. Everything you do now seems to be bringing my hopes up higher and higher. I miss you, so so so bad. Wished you knew how I felt. Wished you knew how you felt. Wished you knew if you really loved me or is all this just mere sympathy. But at the same time, does it seem like that? Cause if it were, I’d rather having nothing at all. I don’t want sympathy, I don’t need sympathy. Right now, all I want is just you. Maybe lavelle was right, maybe you just need a break. I hope so at least. I hope you’re just tired. But I hope your not tired till the point where there is no love any longer. I’m praying and trying to have faith that we’ll end up together again. I really really do. You told me to love myself, to take care of myself when you were gone … What do you really mean, love yourself? How. How could you ask me how I was when you knew I was so broken inside? You don’t know that this pain is literally killing me inside and I could literally feel the ache in my chest. You don’t know what a nightmare it feels like to wake up everyday. All I want is to go back to bed cause in my dreams, we’re still happy and fine together. Not like this, not you asking me to not love you, not you asking me to not have so much hope. I don’t wna only have realised how much I truly love you and how much you mean to me only when you’ve stopped loving me. Can’t eat, can’t go to sleep without crying my heart out. Its the third day and I’m still shedding so much tears.

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When God is going to do something wonderful, He begins with a difficulty; when He is going to do something miraculous, He begins with an impossibility.

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OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG are you fucking serious? yesssssssssss

jesus i been on Tumblr too long

i automatically assumed this was a post about latent racism

like i had to read it several times to see how it wasn’t

they couldn’t use block and add or something?

This is cool i guess but instead of going through all this work why dont you just unfollow the people that post stuff you dont like seems easier

Sometimes even people you like, a lot, post really really stupid shit.

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